Things Involving Me

I’m still trying to quit smoking - so far so good - but I’ve noticed I’ve have a huge mood change. I’ve been short tempered and angry for almost two weeks straight. Don’t even get me started in my sleep schedule. When I’m not suffering from insomnia, I have very vivid and violent dreams.

For example, I dreamt this morning about ordering food from a fast food joint and losing my shit when people cut the line and when the clerk failed to get my order right. I’ve dreamt about yelling and beating the shit out of men twice my weight and size, and my favourite so far is the dream where I told the company I work for how fucking useless they actually are.

If it isn’t obvious, I’m really tired of my job. I’ve made the attempt to move up several times and I know perfectly well that I’m qualified. I think my department is trying to give me the run around, and I’ve decided to switch departments. I won’t be under them anymore, and I won’t say a goddamn thing until it’s already been done. Yeah, I’ll miss the people I work with, but I won’t miss the petty bullshit.

I’ve just been so angry with everything, and everyone. I’m sure my sleep deprevation isn’t helping.

In other news, my female cat is still improperly eliminating on the floor. I’m so tired of cleaning up messes inbetween 1-3 times a day. My hands are so dry from constantly using cleaner. I’m running out of ideas fast. It’s getting to the point where I want her put on meds and kenneled somewhere for a while. I can’t have people over because my house reeks of it, and it’s just so frustrating.


It sucks when you prefer the violent dreams to real life.





Little nugget of advice that really changed the way I approached painting. When I started blending like this it was a real turning point for my art quality.

Forgot to add that lighting conditions and other variables in a piece make the hardness you want to choose somewhat variable. Drawing things like skin is more of a hardness range than it is a hard rule. 

Eheh…get it? Hard rule? (aaaaaaaaaand i’m done). 

Haa thanks, I can’t even put into words how unappealing the overuse of a soft brush is when rendering. There have even been otherwise expertly painted images that were (in my opinion) ruined by that overly soft ‘airbrush’-y look that soft edged brushes give off. 

I mean, I just really hate soft edged brush in most cases. It’s definitely the fact that you can’t read any real confidence in the brush strokes of a soft edged brush. It makes it really difficult to nail down any solid shapes or forms in your painting. Weak vagueness both in brush strokes and with shape and form is generally not a good thing when painting.

 If I can tell a soft edge brush was used (a lot) in an image, I probably won’t like how it’s been applied.


The day I stopped using soft brushes as a blending tool, I felt like I improved more than ever / u\

(via fiona-so)

Tarot asks

The Fool:  Tell an embarrassing story.

The Magician:  Do you have a special talent?

The High Priestess:  Are you good at keeping secrets?

The Empress:  What do you desire most?

The Emperor:  Do you have any family traditions?

The Hierophant:  What is/was your favourite school subject?

The Lovers:  What qualities would your ideal partner have?

The Chariot:  Have you ever had to fight for something?

Strength:  What gives you strength?

The Hermit:  Could you cope with living alone?

Wheel of Fortune:  If you won a million pounds, what would you do with it?

Justice:  If you could be a super hero (or villain) what would you call yourself and what powers would you have?

The Hanged Man:  Would you sacrifice your own life to save someone else's?

Death:  If you were able to reincarnate, what would your next life be?

Temperance:  Do you have good self control?

The Devil:  What do you think your worst quality is?

The Tower:  Describe your dream home.

The Star:  What inspires you?

The Moon:  Describe a dream (or nightmare) you've had recently.

The Sun:  Describe a childhood memory.

Judgement:  Have you ever done something that you were really ashamed of?

The World:  What country would you most like to visit?